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Krishan Abeyatunge

 

 

A castle made of solid stone,

The rubble of a broken home,

A dreamer with a shovel,

In his hand, I am.

 
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"Dimensions in my Crown" is a song from Krishan's other indie rock project called Should We Run.

Director of Photography: Drew Daniels  Video Editor: Tavon Bolourchi

 

Performing "Stick on My Lips" (a Should We Run song) in an alley in the Mission District of San Francisco.

Director of Photography: Drew Daniels  Video Editor: Tavon Bolourchi

"Tomorrow things will be better, if we make it that way."

 

An excerpt from a new song entitled, "Darkness Fades Too".


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Lyrics

 
 

Grimble gromble

 

There was something that I once saw, 

Deep in the woods as a child, I heard a call

It was a Tuesday after school, while all the rest were in the pool

I met a man, he was quite small, he told me, "Boy, I've seen it all"

I knelt down close to him in the grass

And he told me harrowing tales, from his past

He said, "I used to see more, I used to be free more, I used to be more

But then the boxes came."

 

He continued to talk, I sat, I listened

Tears filled his silver eyes, they glistened

He spoke of consciousness and fear, he said "The human is a child, so cruel so dear"

And I wondered what he meant, yes, I wondered so I asked

He said, "The human mind, it seeks to box up Wonder in a casket

and it's not because they're evil, they're just scared of the Unknown

but their tunnel vision science, leaves no room for a noble gnome

I used to see more, I used to be free more, I used to be more

Then the boxes came."

 

He said, "They captured us in boxes made of thoughts

All the fairies turned into mosquitoes, all the magic had been blocked

They're so scared, they're so scared of not knowing

Little do they know, the Unknown keeps growing

I watched my friends and family, disappear before my eyes

I don't know why I was spared, they always told me I was wise

I buried myself deep inside the ground

I found that this protected me from the power, of human consciousness

I'm bound to, disappear like all the rest, but before I go

I'd like to leave a message loud and clear for humankind to know

That the human mind is so, powerful but they don't know

They all use it like a shield, a sword, instead of a shovel

Their test tubes and dissections, oh how clever they appear

But their scientific method, is deeply rooted in their fear

They're just scared, so scared, to not know, it's such a shame

Cuz they'll never know."

Scratch and sniff

V1

You say you like me, you say you think I'm cool,

You say you'd like to hold my hand and walk with me to school,

You gave me stickers, some scratch and sniff ones too,

You tied a ribbon, around my wrist and pulled me behind you,

I saw you coming, you couldn't hide a thing,

I saw the sparkle in your eyes, & the spark inside your mind, & your heart had wings,

You drew a picture:  a little girl with wounds,

And the apparition of a man, inside the girl's hand was a strung balloon,

That Micron girl she made me cry, that picture's etched inside my mind,

She looked so sad and so alone, your sketchbook was her only home,

 

V2

You say you need me, you say this world is huge,

You Mom and Pop are gonna go someday, far away and it'll be just you,

You gave me kisses, just on the cheek at first,

But when I touched your pretty hair, I could hear your heart beat, I think it burst,

And I think you like me quite a lot, but I must be sure,

Because I've opened up to people who've, broke my trust before,

And broken homes makes nervous hearts,

I still recall, the day it all, fell apart, I was just 10 years old, it was all I knew,

There was some poison in that seed from which I grew,

There was some love in that seed.

 

Darkness Fades

V1

The darkness it fades too, and the light will, come take you,

And the stars come out in the nighttime,

And the Moon fills the world with its sweet shine,

The darkness it fades too, and the light will, come take you,

Come and take you away from this world where,

Our president can be cruel and we don't care,

Oooo, where do you go from here?  Oooo, where do we go?

V2

The darkness it fades too, and the light will, come take you,

And the snow falls down on the landslide,

And the spaceship shines in the black sky,

The darkness it fades too, and the light will, come take you,

Come and take you away from this world where,

So much hatred inside, and it's all fear.

Oooo, where do you go from here?  Oooo, where do we go?

 

Outro

Who are you without your sadness? Who are you without your suffering?

When you step into the darkness, who are you with the light upon your skin?

And I guess it doesn't matter much, if your pupils are big or if they're small,

I guess it's more the fluctuations of, that conversation going on beneath it all,

Tell me:  how do you speak to yourself, in the privacy of your mind?

What's the tone of your voice in there?

Is it cruel?  Can you be kind?

 

The Final Spell

V1

There was a wizard, who surrendered his wand,

Took off his robe and tossed it straight into the flames, and he was,

Disenchanted, his life spent searching for a spell, to remove fear,

And extinguish all pain,

It's a shame I'll never know him, because it's true I do relate,

There was a time in life, when I felt my hands, heavy with fate,

But those delusions of grandeur have been taken away,

Perhaps I've lost track of my magic, in the day to day, the day to day,

 

Today I found, your crown, and as I placed it on your head, you said,

"Hey, you're bound, to be something, to someone,

You'll find that final spell somehow,

How many times, have you wandered through the streets at night,

Just wondering what you're made of?

and how, will you find out, lest you dig down deeply,

Deceive those demons, dragging you down?"

 

V2

There was a wizard, he felt so different as a child,

Misunderstood and always lost in his mind, and he was,

Such a strange one, quite the sensitive boy,

Those big brown eyes, saw too much of this world,

It's a shame I'll never know him, because it's true I do relate,

There was a time in life, when I felt I came from outer space,

But those delusions of difference, have been taken away,

Perhaps I'm just another man, living the day to day, the day to day,

 

Today I found, your crown, and as I placed it on your head, you said,

"Hey, you're bound, to be something, to someone,

You'll find that final spell somehow,"

How else to say, when I stand wand-less, the elements they have their way,

And now that I've been battered by the waves,

I feel open to the wind and rain, even though one day it will wash,

Me and everyone I love, away.

 

Dakota

V1

They came from far away, on great big ships on the sea,

Searching for a new life, and some prosperity,

Yeah, they wanted fame, fortune, spices and gold,

But what they were willing to do for that, was cold, so cold,

They met some natives who'd been, living off the land,

It's not much of a discovery, when their tepees were propped in sand,

Those clever conquerors, pretended to be friends,

But that's not how it went down, in the end.

 

No, they did not treat them kindly, they did not shake their hands,

They just smoked their herbs and took their land,

And now centuries later, and it's still the same old thing,

Dakota Access Pipeline Plan.

 

V2

Narcissist, oh narcissist, however did you become president,

You fooled those folks into thinking, that fear would save us all,

Save us all, by building walls and sending all our neighbors home,

Wizard of Oz, you talk so strong, but there's a terror in your bones,

Because only scared, little boys, treat grown women like their toys,

And only insecure old men, name hotels, after them,

We need grown ass man with empathy, we don't teach that kind of strength,

Show our boys how to lead with love, instead of just conquering,

Cuz it's this patriarchal system, that's sick and wrong,

It's not the nature of masculinity, to oppress everyone!

 

No they did not treat them kindly, they did not shake their hands,

They just smoked their herbs and took their land,

And now centuries later, and it's still the same old thing,

Dakota Access Pipeline Plan.

To Be Found

V1

You took me in, into your arms, not because you care, just someone to hold,

You took my words, into your mind, not to explore me, you just liked how they sound,

You took my strength, into your core, you closed your eyes, I barely was there,

Here are my fears, here is what rules me, here are the doubts, that lurk in my mind,

Here are the ways I'm stuck in this story,  of what came before me,

And what's left behind.

 

I only wanted to be searched for, I only wanted to be found.

 

V2

You gave me lips, you gave me flesh, not because you trust me, just to be touched,

You gave me hope, a hope without legs,  not to deceive me, no, you just didn't know,

You are a candle stuck in my sand,  and between the wind and the waves,

We don't stand a chance,

Here are my fears, here is what rules me, here are the doubts, that lurk in my mind,

Here are the ways, I'm stuck in this story, of what came before me,

And what's left behind.

 

I only wanted to be searched for, I only wanted to be found

 

Outro

These are the fears, and the demons inside of, my mind,

When I touch them, I know them so well,

It's uncomfortable to be so comfortable, to be alone,

When I'm under the spell, of the part of me that knows,

How likely I am to be dropped on the ground,

The part of me, that knows,

The only thing I've ever wished to be was found.

For Michael Brown

V1

Walking with your friend, in the middle of the road,

Just heading back to your Grandma's home,

Mr. Policeman harshly tells you where to go, then you decline and everything explodes.

 

He fires rounds so quickly, he fires rounds at you,

A judgement made, so swiftly, a budding life is through.

 

V2

I remember Amadou (Diallo) and I remember Oscar Grant,

Must look suspicious in dark skin,

And I remember getting my neck, pressed against a chain link fence,

For nothing more than looking like I did,

Your fear is so cold, mix it with your prejudice and now look what you stole,

Michael's soul, it barely had a chance to dance in flesh and reach for goals,

It barely had a chance, to dance in flesh, brown flesh, and yes,

I guess, now it has merged back with the whole.

 

He fired rounds so quickly, he fired rounds at you,

A judgement made, so swiftly, a budding life is through.

 

V3

Where did that monster come from, that you keep locked up inside?

And who was it that placed him in that cage?

And why is it that he had to be released, on that fateful day?

Why did Micheal Brown receive your rage?

You make the good cops, more likely to be shot,

You create a circumstance for hate,

What distorted story do you, cuddle up to, at night,

To keep your mind away from what you did?

How do you justify?  I'll never know, I'll never know,

I'll never know, how you convince your mind, to sleep at night,

I'll never know how you convince your mind to sleep.

Made in America

V1

I’m just an American, So I’ve been fed marshmallows my whole life,

Yeah, I’m as special as a snowflake,

I was taught I was entitled to, an inspiring career, a house and a wife,

and not just, any old wife,

well, she’d be smart, funny, pretty, she’d be sexy as a nectarine,

and sweet, sweet as hell, with a body that was smoking,

with no mention of the pressure, that those expectations,

Would put upon a girl or how, they would f*ck with my mind,

my mind has been, conditioned to think,
I must not settle, for less than the best,

Just when you think, you’ve found what you want,

It starts to lose, the thing that you need,

You need, to feel, alive, like it’s real,

Oh, but what if you’re feelings, of what’s real, are tied to,

a hopeless ideal, what Walt Disney taught you,

These dreams, it seems, in your striving for gold,

you’ve missed out on, the warmth, of a body to hold,

you missed out, on the warmth, of a spirit to touch,

the exquisite pain, when you love them too much,

 

V2

I’m just an American, so I’ve been fed Monsanto my whole life,

Yeah, I'm all filled with pesticides,

I was taught that I was, not entitled, to some things,

because I was not White, they called me, all sorts of names,

Yeah, i was made to feel ashamed, of my name, and my skin,

Just call me Kris, for short,

Yeah, I used to be ashamed of my nose, my lips, my brains,

I felt profane, of course

the policeman, would pull me over, throw me in the back,

and search my car, I looked suspicious in his eyes,

But it could be worse, if I were black, perhaps,

At that traffic stop, I'd lose my life, oh America,

America is strange, oh I love the people,

I love the plants, and the animals, the oceans and the contours of the land,

But oh what a history, the indigenous resisted,

But the pistols beat the fists, now once again,

There's so much injustice, that sometimes I just can't,

Sing another love song, without singing bout pain,

 

Outro

We are not our presidents, we are not our flags,

We are spirits l, dressed in flesh, marbles in life's bag,

But it's a paradox, because in this paradigm, I'm an American,

I get the privileges, because I'm a straight man,

But not for the color of my skin.

United States of America, humble yourself and see,

The "greatest country in the world", there's no such thing,

We're just branches on this tree,  just marbles in Life's bag,

Just superstrings in this mesh, chaos so perfect,

Just spirits dressed in flesh.

 
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The Mind's eye

 

Krishan's backing band is called The Mind's Eye.


Keys / Sam Van Diest (of Van Aragon)
Bass / Vinny Scoma (of Should We Run)
Drums / Mie Araki (of Tidelands)

 

 
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